I thought by now I'd be more settled. It's just not the case. It's not just my finances in turmoil but my spiritual, emotional, mental, and physical health. I feel like I am facing one of the toughest challenges of my life. I took a leap of faith for what I thought was the right decision and now I am sorry I didn't handle it like I handle all big decisions, with proper analyzing, planning, and preparation. I thought outside of my comfort zone and got brave for once. I am paying the price for it now, literally and figuratively. Some day soon, I hope, I will look back on this time with a more grounded perspective. For now it's just a struggle for survival.