It is good to set an intention for up coming days but when it does not work out it is like when you start something you are sure will be successful and then it end up not working.
For years I have set goals to only have them crushed and everytime I have to get back up and start again, everytime this happens the climb is higher. When you already have a depression and other issues like that it is very difficult. Even small things like what I will do the next day end up not working out most of the times (example: the past years a few times i have found 1 new movie per day then added the pages from imdb in my favorites and everytime something happens and i cannot even do that - im now in 1 of those 1 new movie per day marathon since friday and so far so good).
And with what has been going on since November 9 2009 it's like I cannot do anything anymore. The only strength that is left in me I put it in the Dallas Stars (am working on that since late january - set a goal for late october and that date is coming soon - ill see if what ill do then will work or not - i have hope it will).
Yesterday I went to bed at 3:28 and got up at 9:51. I went on the beach in front of the house, ran six errands with my parents in Mont-Joli, watched a new movie at 19:25 and Masterchef at 23:00. It was an average night and a very bad day.
So far today I drove 4 children to school at 8:15 a.m. Came home and dyed my hair before I went to the hairdressers. I just got home - haircuts feel good.
Now I have to figure out dinner and go to the grocery store before I pick up my 2 girls at 3:25 from school. Chances are I'll be cooking for extra people this evening as it's Friday and there's no school tomorrow.
Yesterday I went to bed at 4:17 and got up at 13:18. I did a small load of laundry, went on the beach in front of the house, made an online order, watched a new movie at 21:00 and Real Time at 0:00. It was an average night and a very bad day.
Yesterday I went to bed at 4:17 and got up at 13:28. I went on the beach in front of the house, ran one errand in Mont-Joli (IGA) with dad, made an online order and watched the finale of Hell's Kitchen on the internet. It was an average night and a very bad day.
Yesterday I went to bed at 4:22 and got up at 13:16. I watched Dr Phil at 17:00, Judge Judy at 18:00 and the First Round of Rafael Nadal at the US Open (tv + internet + tv). It was a bad night and a very bad day.
Yesterday I went to bed at 3:29 and got up at 10:11. I watched the Second Round of Rafael Nadal at the US open (tv), Judge Judy at 19:30, Modern Family at 22:00 and Masterchef at 23:00. It was a very bad night and a very bad day.