BellaOnline Forums Relationships Bereavement Going on Year Two - Loss of Intimate Partner

I still have tough moments sometimes during my days, but my days overall are getting better with time.

Update......the second year anniversary has now come and gone. The healing for me does continue on. Thanks to some dear spiritual friends, my faith and belief system, and constant work on myself, I am doing a lot better. I have more times when I can laugh, when I feel peace, and when I have hope. Yet there are times when I still shed tears and the pain still cuts me like a knife when I remember the good times we shared and even the times when he suffered.

I am realizing that when you lose someone dear to you, the feeling of loss never does completely go away. You just learn to live with it and you do the best you can to keep moving forward, one day at a time.

Bringmeredwine,

You feel so familiar, so close. It's an odd sensation, really. I've not experienced anything quite like it. Best I can describe is almost like an umbilical chord, but heavy like a lead weight...eh, sometimes these things take time, lol.

I'm curious why the family (yes, I get the $ issue. It's everywhere and from a different perspective can have such an entirely different meaning, etc. hard to explain, here anyway) made such an issue however? How painful that must have been if it wasn't expected?

Hostilities seem to originate from somewhere and as you've met someone online that's supportive, that's a blessing in itself.

Is the family still accusatory of something? I don't know, like "The Black Widow" syndrome or are things finally resting in peace?

It's hard to imagine family acting in such a way.