I'm back.
Skyelaw? Are they heart palpitations?
And Faith, you're so right! I actually went on hiatus with or from religion/faith several years back. My breaking point was a person coming up to me after a seminar I was holding.
You always like to hear how well you are doing or that you've aided a person's life.
Well, I was speaking with one man to my right who had just lost his wife. I remember it like he's sitting next to me now. He was completely deflated, looking for answers, fighting back tears and I was listening.
Another group of people talking enthusiastically about what they got from the seminar simply wanted to say they enjoyed it, but, the topic was Faith, God, Creator.
A man from the group was elated because he prayed/his church prayed during his wife's surgery and she was recovering and fixed basically.
The other man speaking with me lost his wife. She actually passed during a surgery. The irony.
For me to be without words...all I could do was grab this man's arm firmly but subtly and rub my thumb up and down his elbow while knodding while this other man was sharing he was rejoicing. If my loved one made it through brink's death, who wouldn't rejoice?
The other man's last words were, "just goes to show you how the power of prayer works!"
The other man pulled away from my thumb and all I could feel was he just wanted to die, as if he hadn't prayed hard enough.
Faith, Soul is a complicated science and miracles lay between both

Let me know how your brother is doing, Skyelaw! Please.