My heart aches for all of you and I understand what you are all going through to a certain degree... My husband and I have been trying for our first child for almost 2 years now... I have a medically diagnosed bicorneal uterus which can prevent a fetus from growing and cause miscarriage, but in my case the doctors think that I will be able to carry.. I didn't find out about my diagnosis until one year and a few months after we had been trying.. It definitely gave me relief to know what was going on.. I also had my husband tested and everything was fine with him... I then relaxed and told myself just to let go and to love him and our relationship, a few weeks later I found out I was pregnant... I told him the day that I took the home test... He was definitely overwhelmed but excited and so was I... I had my levels checked twice and ended up on progestrone supplements... Everything seemed to be going well, my symptoms were increasing, I was nauseaous and I didn't have any signs of a miscarriage.. We had our first confirmation u/s appt at 8 weeks, it was this past Tuesday... I was laying on the table and technician wasn't saying anything, that's when I knew something was wrong... My husband was next to me and told me not to get upset.. The technician went to get the doctor and he told us that the baby demised at 6 weeks - no heartbeat and no growth after that point.. My husband had put a list of questions together for the doctor to ask, about future appointments and planning ahead, I was so excited to ask all of those questions..
We were moved to a different room and while we were in there he started making a list about what to do next that's when it real hit that I had lost the baby... The doctor came in and told us to schedule a dnc, I had the procedure on Thursday 6/24... He also said that we could start trying again in 4 weeks as soon as I start a spontaneous period... And, that I could get on the clomid that was prescribed for me.. And then he told us to get out of there... I had to call everyone I told and stop at my mother in laws work to tell her kind of ironic that she works at the hosptial where I would have my procedure done two days later...
The doctor who performed the dnc told my husband that all of the tissue and sac looked healthy and that it implanted nicely.. I really didn't find this information comforting... I just wanted my baby back... I went home that day and basically slept.. This is the first day I haven't taken a nap..
I'm so nervous about getting pregnant again and about my condition that I don't know what to do.. I hope for some insite and peace...
My thoughts and prayers are with all of you...
