My heart goes out to you for all you have been through. But you need to realize that you ARE hurting this INNOCENT little girl. She didn't ask to come into this world.
If at this stage you are unable to take care of her because of your own emotional needs, then I suggest you seriously consider adoption. Don't think about yourself, think about her.
She deserves to be treated with love, kindness and compassion.
Children are very demanding and require constant attention. Right now, I think you need to focus on yourself, on healing yourself of the pain and hurt you have inside. That's going to take time and lots of work, and in the meantime your child needs a warm, loving environment to thrive in.
Do you want her to grow up with as much emotional pain as you? I'm sorry if I came across a bit harshly. I really do feel for you pain, but I cannot bear to think of an innocent little girl paying for the sins of her inconsiderate father.
