BellaOnline Forums Beauty and Self Self Development What are you looking forward to today?

That sounds lovely. You are a lovely person and you love people. You can not forget them and that gives you pain. Sometimes I feel that such pain should be treasured.

Holly,

I never think that you exaggerate. You speak truth . I know that.

thank you.

I'm a bit over-sensitive about it i guess. Been accused of lying when i was not. And i know some of the things i say are strange. And there are always differences in perspective, too.

That does not matter. People are many times careless about what they say. Do not bother about them. If you are OK, why bother?

yes. it doesn't matter now. And i am okay.

I used Ok in the sense of correct. If we are correct, we should not bother about what others say. Give them a hearing and close the matter. Sometimes words can affect us. we should keep a shield with us to protect us from all people who irritate us.

Let's see... what can i look forward to, today?

Talking with my friends here at Bella.

Doing some work here at home today... probably i will do some paperwork. Looking forward to paperwork, you wonder??? Well you might ask! Yes, not my favorite task either, but i look at it as a stepping stone to a more focused, happy life. I will have the satisfaction of making progress, so yes, in a way, i am looking forward to it. I also might work on one of the rooms of my house where i'm refinishing very, very old plaster walls and making them look much better. As i live and learn and heal, i've come to greatly value elective labor to better my life and surroundings. There is joy and success in such efforts.

I am also trying, as a new thing, to make sure to give myself some rewards each day... things that bring me pleasure... things that remind me that this day is for enjoying. I like to knit, and read, and i will probably do some of both today.

Holly,

since yesterday, my memories are troubling me a lot.
I would do my work as I da everyday but my mind will be preoccupied with my abuse.
I do not want act like a super human and lie.

Thank you for telling me so that i can understand.

What can i do to help?

Would you rather discuss it, have me just listen, or would you like me to try to distract you from your thoughts?

I would rather discuss it. I do not think that distraction helps. I will keep posting when I am mentally OK.

Right now I am trying to do some work.
Holly you are a gem.