Oh, how I would LOVE nothing more than to just let it all go. Unfortunately, the only thing I can let go is of my attachment to the person or thing that is taking up my happy spaces in my mind and life! How simple it ISN'T. I, and many others, will have to endure dealing with the ex who fathered their children until the kids are 18 years of age. If it isn't directly, the abuse is indirectly, at least in my case. Five years after leaving him and my gaining sole custody in 2003, he decided on a few occasions to sexually touch my two children. He hasn't been allowed to see them since the disclosure last summer, over my dead body!! And, oddly enough, he won't take me to court to push for visitation, or contempt thereof, since I have prevented visitation, because he will always have the burden of proof amongst the professionals who have witnessed both children disclosing at separate interviews, details that are compelling enough to keep him away unless supervised visitation is granted by a Judge. It never ends and never will, at least, for now, that is how it all feels, unless I redirect my thinking to just my children and I, and refocus on what we must to to live happily, peacefully, and most of all, freely.
