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Thanks for all of the support! Well, tonight I did something I have always wanted to do: I GOT A TATTOO! I am so excited. I got a small simple rose with no stem on my back on my left shoulder blade area. The whole story is posted under body art. I am so happy, but so sad that he was not there with me as he always promised he would be. Such a huge thing that him and I have always talked about doing together, (he has 2 tats, wants many more), and I did it without him. On the other hand, HE left ME. I just miss him so much and I am in complete shock I did this without him, without even telling him first that I was getting it. He knows now and I think he is a little upset he wasn't with me, but he didn't really show it or act it, he was with the guys watching football. I don't know, love sucks!

Yes, love does suck at times. To dissolve two egos and make one is a difficult journey.

I am going through quite the same thing right now. My boyfriend and I had been going out for two years and on Friday he told me that he wants to go on a break, he went out and partied all weekend, but would call me and say that he misses me. We have had a really tough past year because I have been trying some new medications which make my emotions go wild and I would often have no control over what I said and would end up hurting him without meaning too. We go to the same college, and I came here for him. A week ago he was talking about getting engaged, and now he wants a break to figure out what is going on in his life, he said that he "wants a normal college experience and can't have that in a relationship." I don't know what to do, I have never felt this much pain. He said that he "always wants me in his life and can't picture life without me but isn't sure if it is as a girlfriend or as a friend" and I just know that I could never be just "friends" with him and see him with other girls. He said he needs to take some time to figure things out and see if we can get back together in a few weeks. It has been one week since our breakup and I am in a living hell. I can't do anything without thinking of him and I can't get him out of my mind. I just don't know what to do. LIke you all of my friends are his friends and I can't talk to them without him finding out exactly what I said. Someone please give me advice, I just want him back and I will do absolutely anything to get him back but I can't be strung along. If he wants this to be over, then it is over, I can't keep doing this. Its just that when we are alone he still kisses me and still wants to be intimate, he was my first everything and my first love. I don't know what to do now. I am so confused and so hurt.