Hi DCA
I also suffer from insomnia, not for the same reason, but because of horrible dreams.
The sleeping pills will oftentimes
interfere with controlling your dreams. I know your parents are trying to be helpful, but you are correct in not taking the meds
at this time. Once you are able to control these dreams, you may be able to take some sleeping aids.
Lauren's suggestion of shutting down your chakra's is very good, it will help keep the info from coming in, and hopefully keep your mind from reaching out.
But you also need to work on controlling the dreams that you do have. During the daytime you should practice meditating, controlling your thoughts. I'm sure Parthena has soem articles on her site.
How to Have a Lucid Dream This is one, and there are other links on her site as well.
And here is the link to the meditation site.
Eastern Meditations I've given you the link to the Eastern meditations, because I think they will be most benificial, but you can check out Susan's entire site just by clicking at the top.
As Lauren has already pointed out, though. Release your guilt. These deaths are not your responsibility or fault. That is for television and movies. You are only human, just with a gift for seeing things that most others can't. Death is not always a tragedy. We never know what kind of life the person might have had if death had not taken them. Perhaps even what seems an untimely death is a mercy. We cannot know.
I'll be praying for you to have some peace and rest. <img src="/images/graemlins/heart.gif" alt="" />