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Thanks everyone for your advice, I really appreciate it.

Recently, I've started to think, it may be a lot deeper than, my attraction to another man. I'm thinking that I just don't want a serious commitment anymore (and never really did)for that matter, but I also don't want to lose what I have built with my boyfriend either.

I'm still confused, and have broke my decision down to, what's safe, and what's a risk. The next step is to figure out, what type of person I am...comfortable and passive, or a risk taker....

Thanks again folks....it really is a blessing to know that there are nice people like you out there, that care and are willing to share peace of mind, knowledge and experience to those that need it!!!!

Sincerely,
Jet Girl

Jetgirl, I would like to say that i am very glad to see you thinking seriously about this now rather than when you are engaged are worse, married!

Too many people would brush this off, and then jump into an affair after marriage because they were still miserable. The fact that you are spending so much time (and heartache) over this shows that you really do care. <img src="/images/graemlins/heart.gif" alt="" />

It's been a while and I'm very happy to report that I have "smartened up"!! It took something really bad happening to me to make me realize that I was slowly destroying my life and everything good in it. I've always been so extreme...so it took something extreme to really open my eyes.

Early this year I became very sick...to the point that if I didn't get the proper help..I would have died... During the time that I was ill, which was for about 3 months or so I was shown the exact meaning of what I think true love is. The partner that I had doubted and almost cheated on was by my side supporting me and loving me even more in my need.

During this time I had put him through so much hurt and sorrow, I came clean with everything that had been building up over the years. He forgave me for everything and just wanted me to get better and move on with our lives. And we've done just that.

I must say that since then I've been thanking the "powers that be" everyday for him and although we've moved on...I'll never really truely forgive myself for what I have done to him and how I had treated him for so many years. All I can do is treat him the way he deserves to be treated for as long as I can.

I'm so glad that I made the right choice when it comes to him...and forever grateful that he still loves me and wants to be with me. The wierdest and best part about this whole thing is...that shortly after I got better, we got engaged and soon after that I became pregnant!!! It's funny how the worst thing and the best thing to ever happen to me happened so close together. So my quotes for today are...

"God really does work in mysterious ways"
"Before you go thinking that the grass is greener on the other side, double check your own yard and make sure your taking care of it properly"

Thanks