BellaOnline Forums Religion and Spirituality Dreams Same dream keeps happening

I have an odd relationship with my parents. i'm sure everyone on the boards thinks I am a very self assured, bulldog, personality. But its actually quite opposite.

Its easy to be assertive when I never have to see someone!

My dad doesn't even know about the rape. And since I was a teen, I was obviously in the wrong, so I was punished. I did not speak back to my father back then, that was my brother's job.

My parent's say hurtful things, and I just don't say anything, soak it up. Any wonder I suffer from severe depression and anxiety attacks?

I was kind of shocked that the "Big Bad" could be my father, I had never thought of him as being threatening to my life, but she said considering how much my life has been driven under, almost to the point of suicide... you get the point.

I don't fear my father physically, but maybe my psyche does.
I haven't had the dream since she pointed this out to me, does that mean anything?

Michelle {{hugs}} parents can really screw you up, but they don't normally mean to. You can't change how your parents treat you, but you can choose whether you take any of it on board. You are clearly a very caring & considerate person, so there is no way that you should believe such negative things about yourself.

Has your therapist suggested an exercise like this? I got it from a psychic friend of mine called Sara Wheeler.

Write down all the hurt & all the negative things that your father (best to start with one person) has said to you or done over the years. Keep going until there is nothing left to write- it may take all night! Let yourself cry & feel the pain while you do it- helps to get it out of the system instead of eating away at you. Then take the pages & pages of notes & destroy them completely. Sara rips them to tiny shreds & puts them in a black bin bag to symbolise getting rid of the rubbish. I like to burn them (somewhere safe!)
When they are gone, they are gone. You can take a fresh sheet of paper & write yourself a new belief. Something like 'I am a kind and loving person. I choose to listen to positive and loving people.' Decorate the new sheet & put it somewhere you'll see it ever day.

Not having the dream since probably means that you've now brought the attention of your conscious mind to the point of it, so it doesn't need to be repeated.