Sorry, I guess I phrased that badly.

I don't believe in a physical deity but an internal guiding force, a life force and a conscience.

In "Drawing Down the Moon" (p. 205) Adler's quote from Fran Rominsky describes it very well: "Not a Goddess who exists as a being or person. Yes, the goddess who is each of us, the one within...She is the inner strength, the light, the conscious woman, who knows her own perfecton, her own perfect harmony with the cosmos..."

This is the one I've connected with and am drawing inspiration and succor from. She is also the first cousin of my other inner spirit, my mentor, the Muse.