I agree with you, once you finally get to black its such a change. Its like starting all over again, having to instruct when you hardly feel like you earned the belt to start out with is difficult, but you just have to keep telling yourself I earned it or else they wouldnt have given it to me. Now comes the struggle of getting remotivated after more than a year to decide if I want to start training for 2nd degree. Keep training!!!!! You can achieve it if you believe it!!!!