Hi Cassie, I'm not sure what really happened. I've been really sick, so it's been hard to enjoy her since we've had her. She is just starting her 3rd week with us. Her brother has been with us 4 nights. I think I started to enjoy seeing her learn from us, and seeing things stick with her, that we taught her. She gets on the school bus and waves real big to me, which makes me feel pretty happy to share what we've been blessed with. To see someone happy to have us in their life, is a nice feeling. I feel for her not getting to have a normal childhood. She's lived in 4 or 5 different families already, and she's only 6 years old. How rotten is that? Her brother, who we recently accepted as well, is 3 yrs old, and she has never met him. She didn't even know she had a brother. Having her brother here, is actually bringing out some very good qualities in her, and is making it easier over all. She has someone to pal around with, and I overhear her teaching him things that we have been teaching her. It's actually quite cute. I've been looking for a great vacation spot for just me & my husband, but now, I'm quite surprised that I am looking forward to taking a vacation with the kids. It's kind of opened up a whole new door, and I'm just curious to see where this leads, and what new fun we can have with it, instead of what we are used to, with just each other. (even though I love time with just my husband, this is new and adventurous, and exciting as well) I can't believe I'm even saying these things, because I was so ANTI-kids before, and I'm 45 years old! I really thought something was wrong with my thinking, before we got these kids. I couldn't understand how people could like kids so much, and me not at all. But something has happened, and my attitude and enjoyment has changed about the whole subject. I used to pray for God to put the motherly desire in me, if it was in his will for me to be a Mother. And I really thought that I would never get that desire. But it's clicked and my eyes have been opened to see the 'fun' part of it, that I guess all those other people, I never understood, see. I really can't explain it.... I'm dumbfounded that I feel this way now. I even think about her all grown-up, and seeing a little part of me in her, that she's learned over the years. It's actually quite comforting. Thanks for asking, Hope