Thanks Cool ;) actually if you ask who says so - almost everyone around. Maybe I just should learn to become deaf when some people speak;))) Anyways - perhaps it's true it will be safer not to do it. There is only one thing that makes me wonder what if...that is the fact that I react different to my nephew. He is just a kid but it feels different. Not that I am crazy for him, but I really enjoy him being around (but still, for me I can't imagine a son). If not him, I wouldn't even think about it for my boyfriend. But as I said, the good thing is that I found you here and can talk about my strange doubts. Thinking aloud always helps me:)) I believe time will give me the solution. Whatever it will be.