I can't say that I relate well to your particular situation, but I do enjoy the "freedoms" of being CF. I constantly feel the need to keep a tight control on my daily life. I usually have a plan and methodology about how my day will go and what my backup plan will be for any daily task, provided something doesn't go right. My friends with kids tell me that once you have children, day-to-day life suddenly becomes spontaneous and unpredictable -- you have no control anymore. This would drive me bonkers!! I also like the fact that my husband and/or I can take off and do something at any moments notice, whether it be grocery shopping at 8:00 PM or making a weekend car trip to the Smoky Mtns.
I also see myself as a child at heart a lot of the time. Traveling is my absolute favorite thing to do. I didn't go many places as a child, so I feel that I have all my adulthood to make up for it and continue to learn about new places and things. When you become a parent, you have to deal with the fact that your ability to accumulate additional worldly knowledge will likely diminish. You become so occupied with passing your accumulated knowledge down to a child and no longer have the time to nourish and increase your own. Parents often tell me that although they make this sacrifice for their kids, they gain other virtues, such as patience and selfless love for their children. I guess there are trade-offs both ways, but I know that my lifestyle is better suited for being CF.
