I will be married 37 years in January. Tonight I am so fed up. It is Christmas time again and for the last 7 years Christmas consists of me cooking a dinner and we put up a tree. No presents for each other because he doesn't believe they are necessary. No friends over nor do we go anywhere. I am 61. There is a lot to this unhappy story and I really need a place to talk. BTW it isnt only because it is Christmas that we dont do anything together. He wont visit family or any friends that we did have. No vacations although he has gone himself three times over the last five years and lied about it. Just seems to be bothering me tonight. Only discussion we seem to have is what a bad housekeeper I have become. It seems when I come home for work I just feel dead and neither of us do anything but that is all my fault. Okay I am rambling.
