Thanks so much for the help. i just recently started talking to an old ex of mine.. he was my first boyfriend ever and in high school and we were together for almost 2 years... anyway hes been there for me, talking to me, helping me get through the tough points when i break down... it helps though to hear motivation and advice from complete strangers because it helps me realize what others see that i do not... so thanks for the help... and please continue to send advice... all of it helps... and i mean every single bit of it... especially since im still having break downs and such.. not as much as i used to, but they're just as bad as they've always been. Thanks again.. every bit of advice is definitely greatly appreciated.

And to Mary, im very sorry to hear what you're going through. And same to you, if you ever need help send me a message or somethin'.. you're very lucky the father stuck around.. in that aspect im glad for you that he did.