I try not to think about him, I try to keep myself busy, but it just doesn't work. He is all I can think about. I feel completely betrayed. How do you walk away after six years? I REALLY want to sit him down, face to face and talk about what is going on between us. I need to know if there is a future for us. I can't move on until I know for sure. I just can't focus on anything anymore. I feel that I have the right to know. I want him back more than the air I breathe, and he knows this, but if he plans on throwing away the best thing that ever happened to him then I deserve to know.
You are getting obsessed with him. But that is quite normal. If you can not talk, why not write down everything and send a mail? You will have to communicate somehow or the pain will eat you away.
