hi rebecca,
youre not running to the door because hes worn you down
and there are so many excuses not to go what you need to look at is what are the reasons you should, what overwhelms you? ive been in your situation myself only i didnt hae children to think about
i got to the point where it was my health or his do i do something stupid and end up in prison or do i end up in a looney bin because it could have gone either way if id have stayed. your also probably mad at your friend because what she is doing is similar to what you are experiencing