Unfortunately, I grew up feeling the same way as Sherrah. I never liked my body (I've always been slim but curvy, 34-26-36), and didn't understand why I couldn't be skinny like all of the other little girls. As I entered high school, I hid my body with baggy clothes and began cutting, drugs, you name it. I met my husband when I was 18, and had been through some pretty tough abusive relationships (jaw fractured & ribs bruised @ 16, and the next serious relationship, the guy was a porn addict and rejected me a lot for the habit). I couldn't figure out for the life of me why I wasn't good enough. Now my husband is great with the kids (we have 2, a boy and a girl) and everything else in the marriage is great, except, he likes to stare at other women. He was addicted to porn when we met, which he no longer looks at as far as I know. He knows how it makes me feel, but he claims there's nothing he can do about it, that women are everywhere so he its not like he can refrain in public. He claims he'd either have to stay home all the time to avoid it or keep his eyes on the floor every time we're in public. Is it not possible to control yourself? Really! What ever happened to respecting your wife because you LOVE her and want her to be HAPPY?
This is the ONLY problem in our marriage we've ever had because he refuses to stop looking around and realize what he has right in front of him. I wont sit here and say I feel like I look better than any of them, but I know I'm worthy of more sexual attention than what he gives me, which he's wasting on other women. In what words would you explain all of this to a man? I've been trying to for 6 years and nothing ever comes of it. Hes the type who will sit there and listen and say "Well what do you want me to say?".
It tears me down daily, and I have daggers every time I see him look at another woman. My biggest insecurity is my teeth, they need a lot of work because of a lack of money and dental care for so long. I have minimal insecurities now.. just a pinch too much of skin here and cellulite there and my teeth, but overall, I've got more potential than I give myself credit for sometimes. Ive had 2 kids, I'm 25 and I look like I'm still 18, so I'm not so incredibly insecure about my looks nowadays.. I've been worse off than I am now. Any ideas on wording all this to him?? Or maybe a new approach? I love him and I want to be with him, and this is the only issue I have in this marriage.
I'm so sorry you've had to go through all of that, Sherrah and Sindri, but I'm so glad you both have MEN in your lives now that treat you the way you deserve. Its nice to know that some men really do care. @ Jellyroll, you are so absolutely right in everything you wrote. Which is exactly why my son will grow up respecting women as much as I can instill in him. I want to raise a man in this house.
::hugs:: to all of you!
Last edited by CajunMama; 04/19/10 04:29 AM.