So It's been over a month! Things seem to be better! I do not look on my husbands laptop, i do not look for a fight. My husband allows me to look on his computor but i dont. I dont invade his personal space and he doesnt invade mines. I personally think that my husband got rid of every single thing that he had pornography on just to show me that he really cares about the way that i feel about it. Im not that religiouse but st matthews chapter 5 verse 27 it says its a sin~ I think the goal to a strong marriage is talkin things through making decions and he made the decision to make me happy! No matter how hard it was to actually talk about it he made that decision because he is military and he is barily home and maybe second guessing the benifit of doupt! lol. Meaning that if it got to much for me to handle than i could just day thats it! No more this or me! I dont ever want to do that and i never would. My husband tells me that i am everything he has ever wanted and he tells me that everynight! I have made changes doing things that i know that would keep us from being in "trouble". I am not sure what i did, maybe it was the crying for a couple days strait because i felt worthless and undesirable that he saw, not sure but what ever it was its been working and now our marriage is stronger than ever i feel...thank you all for telling me all that you have been through. I know this battle isnt over. i know that this will only last so long and once again i will find what i hate some time in the future. When that happens I am not sure how i will deal with it again. I hope and pray that i will be strong depending on the situation! again thanks to you all!
