It's been a while since I've been able to get back around these parts, as my internet access is almost zero these days. Everytime I come here, though, I'm encouraged by the open and honest discussion and at the same time completely disheartened by all of the "I don't, but my husband/partner does" stories that are tearing lives apart. It just makes me want to shake my fists in anger that people would hold a human life over others as though it is a simple object to be acquired. I do not want children, but never EVER could I imagine using them as a bargaining chip. It's so violently wrong.
For my part, I have made arrangements through my VA provider to get a tubal ligation performed this month. While I'm not in a relationship now (and my history thereof is dodgy at best!), I feel no small relief that this will be the step I need to take to insure that an unwanted pregnancy will never be in my future. I've been on the pill for ages and will remain on it after, simply because it controls my periods so nicely, but that slim percentage of ineffectiveness never sat well with me. My mom taught me not to do anything half way, so here goes...
My heart goes out to the women who feel torn and conflicted, who have been forced into motherhood against their wills, and who, like me, continue to brave the battlefield of questions about when it will be our turn. It it my sincere hope that those who are struggling and having struggle thrust upon them find the peace and resolution that best befits them. God(s) bless you, ladies.
That's all I wanted to say.