Because the pattern has been that i make temporary gains only, and then the lack of believing in myself sabotages the gains.
I have begun many times, but always the point where i lose my gain is on a matter of confidence. So before i get to that challenge, i want to learn how to have more confidence, so i don't become uncertain, and in particular, unsure of myself and my worth. It doesn't mean i won't start to work towards my goals, i already have.
Today i am looking forward to challenging myself a lot. A thousand mile journey begins with one step. Each action i do today i will see as one step towards my dreams. If i take enough steps, i will get there.
I'm looking foward to learning something today.
I'm looking forward to this evening, when i will relax and watch some television with a friend.