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Hi all,

Just wanted to introduce myself as the new editor of 12 Step Recovery. See my site for more info about myself but am looking for some great "conversation" with all of you.

Kathy L.

Hi Kathy,

Welcome to the forums! I can't wait to your new articles!

Again, welcome!

Thanks Deanna, I feel fortunate that I have the opportunity to be a part of this site as well as being able to share my recovery and learn from others.

Kathy L.
12 Step Recovery

Hello

I am so glad that there is a chat room for 12 step program. I am very interested in being involved with this program in hopes to better my life. My name is Teresa Carpenter and I am an Alcholic.

Hello too,

Glad to see your posting as I think this could be very beneficial in our recovery. My name is Jennarae and I am an alcoholic
That term is still hard for me , because of the obvious conotations, so I have to keep explaining it to myself by meaning that alcohol does weird things to my brain and makes me turn into another personality who at first was fun, but real quickly got me into dangerous situtions, that I am lucky to have survived. It is super scary to me how powerful and outspoken I felt when drunk . Nothing or no one was going to stop me .... until the police put the handcuffs on, .....even then I still tried to run away when trustfully released in the custody of family....totally unlike the polite, quiet person I am when I am sober.
My spouse playfully asks why cant i just have a few drinks for fun, but I must stay strong, because he doesnt really understand that I cannot just dabble with a little bit. ......... Anyways, thanks for letting me share.

JennaRae, thanks so much for your share. I really wish more women would take the opportunity and post their feelings in this forum but it seems to be difficult for many. The term "alcoholic" was hard for me, too, until I understood that it was a disease. It is not something I wanted to be when I grew up but I am what I am and thank God I have the tools now to live life as a sober woman. Your spouse may ask playfully about the few drinks but never underestimate the demon alcohol. Remember, cunning, baffling, powerful! Be strong and let me know how you are doing either through this forum or email.

Kathy L.
12 Step Recovery Editor

Hi
I am glad that you shared. At least your husband seems supportive of you. My husaband and all of my family basically run from me when the see me with one beer. I have associated this gave with russian ruollette everythime you pull the trigger (drink One beer) you never know what you will be getting. or who I should say Dr.Jeckle or Mr Hyde. In my case.
Talk to ya soon

Teresa

Kathy L. what happened to the daily devotions that you had posted where you were thanking God for your sobriety . there were quite a few and I only got to read them once, but was unable to find them on my next visits to this website. they stayed in my brain as inspirational and as an example of how to think and write in this forum . they were something like, I thank God for being sober today and for not feeling the urge to use alcohol and an escape of my feelings. I thank my higher power for the peace he has given me these last 44 days of staying clean of chemical induced changes ingested. (my add on) Were they erased or the forum structure changed? Oh, and Teresa, thanks for your reply too, that is a helpful explanation for me to use for myself about how like taking that first drink is like playing with Russian Roulette and not knowing who you might turn into, Jeckle and Hyde is a good description for me too. Thanks girls for sharing and hopefully we are the beginning seeds of this forum for more people to join in and help it grow. Lets pray for that. OK? JennRae

JennaRae, You know I will reinstate my daily prayer of gratitude for my sobriety. My hope was that many other women would visit the forum and add their own pledge but as I have mentioned to you before, tons of women look but most do not add their own comments. I so wish they would but because you asked, I will open up that forum again so please not only read it but add to it every day. Even if it is just you & me.

Thanks so much for remind me about this.

Kathy L.
12 Step Recovery Editor

I have a husband that is an addict, both alcohol and whatever substances that cross his path, but he is still functioning fairly well in his everyday activities. However, at home in the evenings he is grabbing a glass of wine as soon as he comes in the door, and sometimes even while he is holding one of our small children. He will not admit to having a problem, and I attend Alanon meetings to keep and find some sanity. However, recently he notified me that a former childhood friend that he has only seen about twice in the last 20 years was going to visit with a girlfriend or co-worker, not sure which, and would like to stay with us. I agreed, since they could sleep downstairs-all of our other bedrooms are upstairs,and that would protect our children since I don't know this friend and again, we have small children.