I am so sorry to hear about the panic attacks. Stress and lack of sleep can absolutely cause those and migraines as well.
The stressful environment your parents are creating is causing enormous damage to your health.
For your own health, I absolutely encourage you to get help from the doctors, the nurses, and everyone else to get away from them. You need to take that step. There are people who will help you. Reach out to them and get your help. It will only get worse every day you stay. The fact that you refer to them as monsters says everything. You need to get away.
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