So sorry your going through so much Wish i could give you a hug Can you get into therapy , You need some one you can talk to I can send you my email address sometime it helps to talk and just have someone listen Please don't apologize, It's fine I'm always here I don't leave my house, And i love being there for my friends So many people tell me " Rosie your always there to listen to me" Every one needs someone I couldn't figure out how to find out anything about my dream on that website . Sooner or later i'll figure it out Hang in there , Thinking and caring about you