Sometimes, I wonder how my heart can keep on beating after suffering the damage and the pain of loss...
I am sorry that you feel loss and pain. No one knows true pain until she has gone through loss.
I hear hope in your words, though, Debbie. Your boyfriend will help you move on from the other side. He wants you to be happy again. I feel that.
But be gentle and patient with yourself. A year is not a long time.