I hope you find the perfect place to live. I wish you serenity, well wishes and happiness in your travels. If you end up in America I would be thrill and proud to have you as a neighbor. We live in a small town in South Dakota. Most of my neighbors are Karen or Kayin. Except for a new neighbor building one block away (a huge water park) we have a friendly peaceful neighborhood. (It gets downright cold here though)
I hope you find a place where you're happy and can have birdies again. Your spark is not quite as bright and shiny.