I've lost my mother, lost my best friend and other significant people in my life. My children are all adults and on their own. My husband of 37 years is doing his thing. I retired a year ago. I thrived on feeling needed and now I feel lost and abandoned and the feeling of loneliness is overwhelming. I am refusing to take anti-depressants. Took one for three days and hated the way I felt. I'm looking for natural ways to deal with these feelings. Right now I am trying Rhodiola and hoping it works.