Hello Kitten,
Although I've never suffered from clinical depression, my sweetie still struggles with it. Yes there's medication and counseling, but sometimes it just strikes. I've seen the physical and emotional torment of deep sorrow with no definable cause. I will say however, that Phyllis definitely has the right idea. Do your best to stay strong, get some laughter in your life and don't hesitate to reach out to others. This forum has many friends' shoulders to lean or cry on when you need it. You can always message me if you need to or just feel like saying hi.