I am sorry to hear about your loss. I know how hard it is to go through, and feel alone and distant. Right now you need support, especially from your partner. Don't give up hope and know that you still can try when you are ready. Take as much time as you need to heal, and you will always hold a place in your heart for this pregnancy. Even though your sister experienced some unfortunate times, doesn't mean that you will. Remember that everybody is different. My sister experienced 2 miscarriages and then went on to have 4 healthy children. Hang in there, and keep your head up. I know it is easier said then done, but prayer and faith can bring miracles. It's all in God's hands:)