There's nothing I am looking forward to today - I am just trying to get through it without crying any more. i had to put down one of my kittens yesterday and my eyelids are actually raw from wiping away tears.

I even had my MIL cancel a hike i had scheduled for today with some people. I could not bear to even call anyone to cancel.

I am trying to think of what I might look forward to today. Maybe relaxing with some books and cuddling my other pets.