thank you for all that have respnded it does help me to know that i am not alone. Blending a family has been the hardest thing i have ever done and it complicates things i due believe if it were just my kids it would be different. and my therapist feels that the marriage co unselor we were just seeing is wrong in some aspects he basically told my husband and my self that he did not feel optimistic about our relationship surving due to me and my issues. totally put my husband on a pedastal. and my threapist i have been seeing for 5 years.. knows me a little bit better. the first marriage counselor we saw for 6 months and it did help and the reason we went was because my hubby chose my best friend to talk to and not me thus a emotional affair. and he was wrong and wanted to save the marriage.. we are both at a point were we dont want to move forward.. because of all of the unresolved issues with his ex wife etc.. she is a total piece not responsible his kids were so much better with him.. then i ask myself why what have i dont so wrong in life to deserve this.. i am so afraid to be alone as i get older in life. and wonder if we should split maybe we would find ourselves again and each other but afraid to take that chance. the disrespect and the kids splitting us is wearing on me and wanting to be with him. in the beginning he use to side with me now he is total opposite. too much to say and litle time i could write for hours.. bbl
diana
