Hi Jenny... I know I'm really, really late to this post, but I just came across this site. I had actually googled, "I hate being a mom" because I was so hoping there was someone else out there going through something similar.
Before we had our child, I had thought that I was ready to be a parent and that it was what I wanted. I had no idea how much I would mourn the loss of myself and my life. I had no idea that I would lose myself this much. It's been 19 months and I'm still reeling.
It's next to impossible for most women to be able to comprehend... to them, giving birth gave them life... gave them a sense of self and a connection to the world. To me, it was dying. All the parts that I liked about myself and my life are gone.
Anyhow, I just wanted to let you know that there are others like you out there that feel they've made a huge mistake that they will have to live with and make the best out of for at least 16 to 17 more years.
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