its hard going to public places bc lately its been like all the pg women go there and say haha look what i got and to bad so sad. Even though i know that they have no clue. it hurts more than anyone could imagine. Even though its only been a few weeks everything reminds me of it. I try so hard to keep my self busy. But then i always end up back in bed or couch thinking about it. Wondering why did this happen to me for the third time. Why dont God want me to have another baby? Why dont god wnat me to have a blessed baby girl? Why WHY WHY WHY. But it still would be nice to have someone to talk to about all this whenever i need to wo wondering if they are getting tired of hearing about it. But i know the pain will ease in time, but it willnever truly go away.
