I think the whole counseling idea is good. I have thought about it too. No one gets what I am going through. I am glad I have found people who do. Thank you for replying back. I am so sorry for your loss. I wish you the best. Maybe someday we can all move on but for the time being it is nice to have people who understand to talk to. I don't really know how I am suppost to feel or act. The thought of it goes away sometimes only to come back and smack me in the face. It hurts so bad and no one I know understands that. So, thanks for listening to me. I wish you all the best.