I thought as I grew up in to an Adult where I old enough to leave home that all my childhood year's of abuse would just vanished. Huh! that is joke on me. Those memories are still there and I just forget ever being a child. Verbal and emotional abuse was more worse then the physical abuse. Those memories I relieve every day in how I present my own life as Adult. I don't like being around people, great impact in my life as an Adult. I don't like close in small areas, having to go to hospitals in to the clinic's, I end up having a panic attack. It has an impact in my dreams, wishes. I don't believe in them anymore. Don't tell me that verbal abuse don' t hurt, I am a live victim that has been very verbal abuse. I am Adult living childhood ghosts of the past.