Well, I imagine the title explains my concern. I have been with my boyfriend for over 4 years now, ever since we were 14. We're now 19 and everything seemed great. Last month, I found out that he had cheated on me. He did not have sex with her but they still did "things". I am just confused, I am his first girlfriend so I mean I do understand that maybe since we were so young that you just want to see what it's like being with someone else? We had the longest talk about it which involved a lot of tears on both our parts. He said he doesn't know why he did it, it was so sudden. Everything was great. I don't understand why someone would ruin something so great for no reason. I mean sure we had our ups and downs but we were at a really good place. Yes we are still together (no judgement please)but I'm just a little worried. He told me it was just a terrible mistake and that he would never EVER do it again cause he hated the way he felt afterwards (I know most of you reading this are probably going "what is she thinking, does she actually believe him? Dump his [censored]" But the thing is I've been with him for nearly 5 years, I've grown up into the person I am with him. I am deeply in love with him and I do know he is in love with me as well.
I do think he was just curious to see what it would be like being with someone else since I am his first girlfriend and we've been together for so long. I am however worried that maybe subconsciously without realizing it, I might be getting boring to him almost like I'm too familiar. For example, let's say pizza is your favorite food and you had to eat it everyday, sure at first you love it but eventually you get tired of it and just don't want it anymore.
I don't want to have to think that way but I am scared that later maybe down the road when we're married and have kids that it'll happen again because of that reason.
Is there anything I can do? Any advice from someone who has gone through something familiar? I do genuinely believe he is sorry and he regrets it so please no hate. I do know of relationships that have gone both ways, someone cheated and both partners worked it out and grew stronger and others couldn't overcome it and called it quits.
Is it normal for me to feel this way? I guess I just really need some advice.
Thanks for listening,
Jessica