Hi, Nola, I am so sorry to hear about that you cried and are terrified for so many things, I experienced this kind of things for about several months as well after my graduation, i need a job to raise myself so desperately at that time. I am terrific too, as a person who entered the society to start the real life decided by her own, there are always so many things to worried about, but sometimes you have to choose, you have to be brave to make the decision that you are terrific, it is a must you see. Once you stepped out, those worries would be minimized, you have to step out, then you'll find how brave, strong, competitive and excellent for you job you are about to deal with. All your worries can be settled down with you activities, all skills you are lack of can be learned through later-learning, you have to step out to break all your terrified feelings in fact.