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#802962 - 01/27/13 09:42 PM
Re: Being chased
[Re: ancientflaxman]
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Ha ha ha.....there are no tomatoes, Dave.
Losing a part of myself....I lost the carefree joy I used to have many, many years ago. The hopeless romantic, the optimist, the idea that anything can be accomplished with love and patience. I can tell by looking at photos of when I was younger. It returned a bit in the past couple of years, but not to the degree that was me back then. Now I am hardly happy due to the heartache and painful experiences that have changed me. I find sometimes that I am harder and colder than I want to be. That is so far from who I am, but I think I have become a little cynical. I am working on this, and I find that peace is what is coming first, which I do need. The happiness will come later, I am sure.
The only other thing that comes to mind right now that I might be afraid of within myself is to become emotionally involved with a man too quickly while still in my vulnerable state. I thought that might happen, but the guy in question turned out to be unreliable and we won't be getting together even in friendship. He has a checkered past and I wanted to be careful to see everything with my open eyes, because I am physically attracted to him, but again, this won't be a problem because he is too busy being involved with himself. I wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt and a chance for him to make better choices, but it seems that at this time he does not want to have an adult relationship.
I will give what you said some thought. I don't know what else it could be. I just know I am so eager to love and to be loved that this could get me into trouble if I don't hold back for some time to view a relationship for what it is and not for what I want it to be.
I do have a hard head....how did you know? LOL. Once I am of a mind about something it is impossible to budge me. And yes, I will stay grounded in my spot and stand for what I believe in forever.
I do need to make more time for meditation. I don't dedicate the time I really should be. Thanks, Dave!
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