Day 2: Am I making progress? Well, let's see. Yesterday I made multiple lists for myself: My yearly goals, monthly goals, goals for this week, and goals for Thursday. I didn't get much done yesterday. I did a teeny load of laundry (clean underwear yay), read a chapter in my book, and did a little sweeping. One thing I did do is, I went to a poetry reading last night! It was so wonderful. There is nothing better than going to a poetry reading, it really is the most beautiful thing. People gathering together to celebrate words, oh I love it. It inspired me to write so much, but then even as I was inspired to write, I heard this voice inside my head that was like, yeah but you'll never get published. You are not this girl. You are not this boy. You will write and write and all that will happen is you'll be embarrassed. Who is this voice? Where is it coming from? I was NEVER like this. I believe it is coming from my roommate. I need to get out of this house, but I don't know how. I don't have any money. It is difficult because my roommate is my best friend, but she doesn't value writing and it just depresses me. Why do I need constant approval. I don't, but I do need an environment that allows me to write. Am I right that it's her? It might not be. She did give me her writing chair. Maybe I just need to recognize it and be aware. I keep thinking how difficult it is to write in my room, but I can change that. I just need to overcome some things. The first being, I need a reading chair. The second being, I could use a table for tea and of course some plugs. I might even keep the hot water thing in my room. I need to create a sanctuary. A place that does not allow for guilt nor judgement nor sleeping. This way, I am not blaming anyone for my shortcomings. Okay, here is a dilemma I have been struggling with: morning or night? Night has proven to work for me. Morning sounds better. Let's try morning. I think I can do morning with food instead of worrying about working on too little sleep. Also a trap is to go to sleep before I get anything done. I need to PREPARE for the next day in order to have a successful morning. So, that is on my agenda for today: prepare everything for the night so I can get up and successfully enjoy a productive morning. Mornings are also reserved for writing only. If I am to be awake, I am to write. What do I do about the fact that writing is difficult? Prepare for that also. Write in notebook. Transfer. Just get your butt in the chair. Disable your web browser so you can't surf the internet. Just go. You can totally do this!