Many, many times, but I've always felt like an outsider, even before I began writing.
It's been both good and bad. It's always wonderful to know what your purpose is, and feel like you're moving towards that purpose. But, sometimes, it seems like it would be interesting to just be, "normal," for lack of a better term.
I have not had a normal life, so I often wonder what it would be like to have had one. I cope by doing what I'm supposed to do: write.