BellaOnline Forums Beauty and Self Inspiration How is your health these days?

When I ask this question, I am talking about every arena of your health. How are you mentally, physically, spiritually, emotionally, and financially? Talk about one or talk about all.

Me? Approximately 2 years ago, I discovered that I suffer with Candida.

Since then, I have become more conscious of my cleansing cycles, carb intake and de-stressing exercises. I am more aware of my symptoms and am making a more conscious effort to become 75% raw.

By becoming more aware of how candida affects my life, I have also become more aware of other things happening within my body. Truth is, I definitely feel that they are all interwoven (mentally, physically, spiritually, emotionally, and financially).

I am well on my way to recovery and balance.

So, how about you? How is your health; mentally, physically, spiritually, emotionally, and/or financially? I really want to know.

Mentally.....I am ok enough, but I am tired. I am predisposed to depression, but I battled it and won last fall and I am still doing ok.

Physically.....Like I said, I'm tired because I am not sleeping as well as I would like to be. A lot on my mind. I could stand to lose some weight but lately I eat better and I have been walking. I don't see the numbers going down but I do see my shape changing, which is good.

Spiritually.....Getting better in this area. It is a period of transition for me in many ways right now, and for once I am taking care of the inner me the best I can.

Emotionally.....Sometimes struggling. I just lost my boyfriend of 2 years last month. He died from a major heart attack at the age of 49. His health was not great but certainly nobody expected this. I lived with him, and so it is especially hard dealing with the loss, and now I have to make plans to move clear across the country to be with my family this fall. There's a lot to do and to think about, but I can't stay here in his in-law apartment forever, even though his parents are wonderful. I pretty much have to organize all my things alone (including my storage unit an hour away) because nobody lives close enough to me to be of help. I am overwhelmed and still hurting.

Financially.....Broke. I have been unemployed for some time due to a layoff, divorce and relocation two years ago, and also due to being my boyfriend's full time caregiver after his first heart attack a year ago. It is emotionally difficult to look for work but I have tried. There is not much out there, and I am in competition with a lot of other people for what I do apply for. It is frustrating.

Good Morning Cassie!

That IS a lot to take on. The state of your health seems appropriate, given your circumstances.

So, are you ready for healing? What if I told you that the Universe is conspiring to care for you and bring you happiness? The past two years have most likely been a transformation period, preparing you for this time in your life.

Where so you want to go with your life Cassie? That's the 1st question you need to answer. Take your time with this one. Think about the things that bring you joy. What do you really enjoy doing? What makes your heart soar? Are there certain types of people with which you prefer to spend your time? In what capacity do you easily give of yourself without regard for reciprocation?

That's a lot of homework, and it will start a newer course of balanced health.

Have a great day Cassie!

Please feel free to respond when you have your answers. I really want to know how you are doing. I want you to be in great health.

Hi Yvonnie,

Thank you for responding and for your kind words. I am ready for healing and I am working on my personal healing every day.

There are still many changes to come, so in effect the transition period for me is still in progress. I don't think I can pin down a direction to go in until after I move across the country and settle down near my family. I need to feel grounded again, and I will be living with my mother. She has a way of making me feel like I am at home.

I have a lot to do between now and then, and a lot to do once I am there to find work and a place for my horse to live. I have two horses now, but I am pretty much forced because of finances to give one up soon. I hope I can still keep one in my life because being with horses is where my true passion lies. It is during those times that I feel most connected with myself and most like how I was meant to be. And I can talk with horse people all day long. Once I am working I need to save up to be able to pay for transport to get my horse home with me.

As for everything else you mentioned, I can't even begin to consider that right now. Most of my energy is used for just trying to get through each day and to deal with my sadness over losing my dear love. I am needing this alone time to grieve and heal. I know it will take time. The rest of my energy is used for taking care of my dogs (thank God for them because they make me get out and walk), and going through some things in preparation for moving.

I want and need a job for now at least part time, but my energy level for searching has been nonexistent. With each week I feel a little better so I know I need to resume the search very soon. It is yet one more hurdle I need to try to jump.

Cassie-

{{{smiles}}}, {{{hugs}}} to you.

Unknowingly, you did answer each of the questions I presented to you for homework. These are the answers I heard...

Where do you want to go with your life Cassie? That's the 1st question you need to answer. Take your time with this one. Think about the things that bring you joy. What do you really enjoy doing?

You really enjoy being with animals (and mom).

What makes your heart soar?

Horses.

Are there certain types of people with which you prefer to spend your time?

You like being around horse people.

In what capacity do you easily give of yourself without regard for reciprocation?

You give to animals without regard for reciprocation.

I feel so warm inside when you mention the animals. I hope your new found job lands you in a position with horses and dogs and other animals that can benefit from your compassionate energy.

May your heart heal without a scar and your horses remain in your care. May you step onto this new path with energy, vigor, and love. The light around you is bright.

In Balance,

Balance.......that is what I am striving for. I am allowing myself some time for healing, and I hope that after I am settled from moving this fall I will find some renewed energy to embrace life.

Hi, Yvonnie.
I ask myself those questions frequently. I have dealt with the loss of vision for 10 years now. I know it seems like a long time to deal with an issue. But when it dominates every facet of your life then it is a lifetime struggle.
I can say I have learned how to adjust and change to my situation. I am happy and doing fine. With a lot of courage and determination I have faced my struggle and feel I am growing. Great thread. Hope you get lots of responses.
Wishing you all the best. Your friend. Dean

Hey Dean-

Vision issues (like other health issues) are really difficult, I imagine. My husband suffers with Keratoconus and is considering having his corneas replaced. We've been together well over 20 years and I still do not understand the severity of his symptoms and disease. He finds it hard to explain his symptoms in a manner that most can truly understand. In turn, I feel that I may not have been as supportive, over the years.

I am so happy that you are writing about Vision Issues. It provides awareness and support to those that are suffering and those that need to support them. Furthermore, it allows you to continue teaching.

So, Dean, what is the one thing you miss seeing most? How do you indulge in that idea (the thing you miss seeing) now? How has it changed for you; more intense or less appealing?

What path in life called to you when you had sight? How has the call changed since you have lost sight?

Looking forward to your answers...

My husband and I are both 61 and at our age, health issues pop up. However, I see these as opportunities to get on a higher, better path.

I've had a condition for the past 5 years which causes constant tingling all over my body, as if it fell asleep and is waking up. None of the doctors I've visited have a clue why this is happening so I decided to create a health plan for myself which includes yoga, tai chi, green smoothies and a very good diet (just lately gave up meat and gluten) and meditation.

Without having this health situation, I wouldn't probably be doing most of these things, which are good not only for my body, but my spirit so I remind myself to be grateful for having this to put me on a better path and keep me there.

Another thing I've done because of having this is to blog about natural remedies and proactive things people can do to create better health for themselves, regardless of what issues they are facing. There are lots of inspirational stories out there, plus books and programs on self-healing that can lead to great improvements in mind, body and spirit.

For me:

Financially - on a holding pattern for now, waiting on SSI to come through. Living frugally is fun, though.

Emotionally - this is hard. my husband is leaving me April 10th. Sometimes I start crying over nothing, even though i know it's time for this relationship to come to an end. I do have my meds to control anxiety and depression, though.

I am also feeling sad about the amount of things i need to do to have my life in order.

Spiritually - doing okay. I want to set aside more time for meditation and yoga, but i do get out and walk a lot, and i consider that spiritual time.

Physically - mostly okay. I plan to start running again once Dan leaves here. I am working on getting enough nutrients and fiber and healthful food in my daily plan.

Hey Boomer Gal!

My husband and I are both 61 and at our age, health issues pop up. However, I see these as opportunities to get on a higher, better path.

I agree.

I've had a condition for the past 5 years which causes constant tingling all over my body, as if it fell asleep and is waking up. None of the doctors I've visited have a clue why this is happening so I decided to create a health plan for myself which includes yoga, tai chi, green smoothies and a very good diet (just lately gave up meat and gluten) and meditation.

Candida changed my life in this manner as well. Could yours be circulation issues? How have your lifestyle changes changed your symptoms?

Without having this health situation, I wouldn't probably be doing most of these things, which are good not only for my body, but my spirit so I remind myself to be grateful for having this to put me on a better path and keep me there.

Love that! Me too.

Another thing I've done because of having this is to blog about natural remedies and proactive things people can do to create better health for themselves, regardless of what issues they are facing. There are lots of inspirational stories out there, plus books and programs on self-healing that can lead to great improvements in mind, body and spirit.

Great site! You may be my new hero.

Glad to meet you here at Bellaonline.com.

Keep up the great work!

Jilly-

Sometimes your sadness comes through the computer. I hope our caring and support comes through to you.

Once the space is clear, is all yours, and filled with your energy and no gaps, you will begin to feel better.

I love how you have embraced and accepted your timely healing. It is great that you see light at the end of the tunnel and that you continue to move forward.

Mentally, physically, spiritually, emotionally, and financially, one day you will look back and recognize that this was the start of many blessings in your life.

You fascinate me Jilly! Your beauty radiates brightly and the Universe definitely has big plans to help you make a huge difference on this earth.

Are you planning to help teenage/young adult girls through emotional suffering or some other womanhood concept? Your turmoil serves as great education on that path.

All is well.

May your light grow brighter each day.

Thank you. I do feel the caring and support. It's a wonderful thing and why i keep coming here. You are great!

I do feel i have a mission to help people live frugally, under their means, and even get back to the land a little bit. I know i can help people everywhere in any conditions.

It is getting worst! My life has always sucked but at least I had my health (physical that is...i got a depression when i was around 10...dont know why it didnt arrived before quite frankly) but since moving here in November of 2009 that too has gone against me! It started with my depression getting worst by the day then I got an awful flu that lasted almost two weeks (i RARELY get them and when i do they dont last more than 1 week) then my hypermetropia came back and I could not find a place here that was able to make me a pair of glasses (theres 3 eye doctors here...the first made me glasses but they were wrong and she decided to give me my money back instead of fixing her error then the other place he told me that it would not make any difference if i wore glasses when watching tv being on the computer and reading so i never tried the other 1) then on November 13 I got four fillings done and one of them (i later learned that there was NO CAVITY AND NO FILLING ON THAT TOOTH) has hurt me since then (i went to another dentist monday and the woman [not the dentist...i went to that place 3 times and only saw him the first time where he promised me that he will take care of me...that is the man who sent his secretary yesterday to tell me that he did not want to see me again because it was not his problem and i had no money!!!!!!!] put so much polish on that tooth that i cannot even chew my food...i go see the dentist who did that to me tomorrow morning and hopefully she will AT LEAST be able to polish the tooth so i can chew again!!!) and that is bringing me jaw, throat and neck problems since I have to do contortions to eat on the right because I can't on the left anymore and that also brings lots of headaches! Now I am just waiting to see what awful thing is going to happen to me.

Nancy-

I have sent you a detailed message in the "What's Standing in Your Way?" thread.

I am sending you 7 days of loving and healing energy.

Absorb it.

Sometimes all these problems are interrelated and sometimes are not. but the way to recover from all kinds of disorder about health may be differ from each other but every one will agree with me that the first duty is to recover from mental health at first.

Hi Prime-

Welcome. You could be right on all accords.

It is my belief that each is interrelated (mental, physical, spiritual, and emotional health; and sometimes financial).

Which one should come first is based on which one is plaguing you most. The one that is most prevalent in your concerns is more prevalent on your journey and most likely where you should start. And that, of course, is how we differ and how we determine what we need to heal/recover.

How's your health?

I looked back at my response a year ago and things have certainly improved. I lost 25 pounds and my physical health is pretty good. I just need to monitor my blood pressure but I have been on meds for 20 years for that.

I have a job but I don't make very much money, so I struggle week to week to make ends meet. It is physically demanding too and I don't like retail. But it is better than no job at all and I hope that I can find something better down the road.

I am still healing from losing my boyfriend. Overall I think I am doing better in that area but I still miss him terribly. Some days are worse than others. I don't cry as much as I used to, but I have at least a tear in my eye daily thinking about him. I don't seem to be able to feel pure joy since he passed, but I have hope that better days are coming.

I have learned a lot about myself and my belief system in the past year. I feel more confident and peaceful in my own skin.

Debbie I just need to give you a Cyber ((((((HUG)))))). Blessings Margaret

Health issues, don't get me started. I've had health issues from the age of 3 months when I 'Died' as a baby. However, I'm now 65 years of age, and my health issues rarely stop me in my tracks, rather they have slowed me down. In my younger days living with Auto-immune diseases I was still able to dig up a garden, grow veggies, paint a house and chop wood for the fire, take care of my family and work from time to time. It's all in how you approach your health issues as to how you will cope. Never give in to fatigue, never give in to one migraine after another, and never give in to Arthritic pain. Just let your brain overide the pain. With practice it can you know! My biggest problem is insomnia due to Anxiety which I have trouble with from time to time. Yet even insomnia cannot tie me to my bed :-) One day I will succumb, but until then..... Blessings Margaret aka Maggie

Nancy I've just read your thread, and I also want to give you a Cyber ((((((HUG)))))). We're all close in Spirit, and never truly alone with our life issues. Try to remember that, and ask your own Spirit for some physical as well as Spiritual support!! Blessings Margaret

Margaret....a big ((((HUG)))) to you too!

My deceased boyfriend also was sick as a baby, and his health issues went on and got progressively worse as he got older. Even so, it was amazing what he accomplished. Nothing kept him down. He was and still is an inspiration to me.

Hi Margaret! Thank you very much! I am lucky to have a computer connected to the internet because otherwise I would be completely lonely! I always have lived with my parents but they were only there to provide material things not love. My mom also can accompany physically (like the last 2 times i went to the hospitals she was there) but that's where it stops. Never heard the words I love you, never heard the question what is wrong (except for people i never met on the internet...my supposed best friend has never answered my emails of when i was talking about what was wrong but the ones i never met did and were worried too and kept asking me if it was better and that includes 2 people who have lots of medical problems) and never got a hug from anyone. The problems (the ones talked about here) I had are getting better. The tooth still hurts but slowly I am getting over my throat and neck issues (they were all in my head..i got tests done to prove it...even if i know its all stress its still hard to forget but what is helping me move on is even if i think about it it rarely comes with the symptoms so i know its better). My depression and everything else are still there, as long as I have no job and I still live with my parents I don't see how it will go away. I am trying to get rid of my laziness, if I would get up earlier I'd start taking long walks again (here only 2 or 3 lights work so its dangerous to walk at night...it rained lately and then got cold and snowed so theres hidden ice), that has always calmed me down and kept me calm for the rest of the day. Again thank you and I am sending you a huge hug!

Nancy walking in the Winter can be difficult, so how about finding some exercises that you can do in the safety of your room? I have a treadmill in my gamesroom area which faces the tv. So I watch tv while I do a brisk walk, well as brisk a walk as I can do these days, lol. I'm sun sensitive so in the summer I can only go out before 9:30am or after 6pm. Our winters are no way near as harsh as the Northern hemisphere, though when we have a storm it's a doozy. So I'm able to get out and about more in the cooler months than the warmer months. Winter months can have a negative affect on some folks mood. They can have a recurrence of their depression when there's not enough sunshine around. Anyway I hope that your depression lifts soon, and the sun soon shines for you. Debbie when a person is born sick or becomes sick soon thereafter, they quickly learn to cope with whatever life throws at them. We're use to not feeling 100% and as we don't really know what it feels like to feel totally well, it does not matter to us. Does that make sense to you? As for your deceased boyfriend, it's so sad when people leave this earth too soon. There is still so much of life for them to experience, yet I know that it was no accident that they were born into a life of sickness or hardship. They chose their journey, and when it's over they'll chose another maybe more gentler a journey, maybe not. In the meantime those left behind have to find their own way through life, and we do. Take care both of you. Blessings Margaret

Lots of chatting going on in this thread yesterday.

Good Morning Family!

I love the support we can get in this forum. Maggie your advice and reasoning is beautiful. Your optimism is wonderful. Being born a sick baby (no less dying) and coping for this long with a charm and sense of humor to boot. I love that. Thank you so much for being a part of our family.

Nancy, it is so wonderful to see you chiming in again and doing better. Your scenario is the perfect example of how each component of our whole health (mentally, physically, spiritually, emotionally, and financially) intertwines and affects our energy. I hope the seven days of healing energy being sent to you had a positive affect. With your permission, I would like to send you seven more days of healing energy? This time it would be an increase of vibrational energy, something that would boost your energy level and hopefully spark or inspire or trigger you to see a certain scenario with a bit more clarity. Let me know.

Debbie, wow!!! 25 pounds and a job. Good for you! I'm so happy for you. It's been a long time since I saw your beau or had you on my energy list. I believe the last time I visited you at the bewitching hour was in May of last year (hmm?). Is there anything I can do for you on a spiritual level? Let me know.

Thank you, Yvonnie. If I think of something I will let you know.

I met with a clairvoyant/medium recently and I will write about it on my forum soon. My sweetheart showed up loud and clear (I told him beforehand that he'd better follow me in there.....I was spending a lot of money for this!). The medium sensed him with me as I was coming up the walkway. I am still figuring out what I want to share about this experience and how to present it here. I am very glad I went.

Hi Margaret! I started exercising again last year (i think it was august). They are little exercises (1 at a time...im at the second now...moved in late 2009 and stopped exercising before moving...thankfully i was walking a lot when i arrived here) and done before my shower at night. I'd love a treadmill but there's no room for one and I don't have the money. Weather has no effect on my depression. I actually love snow and rain better than good weather (i even feel better when its raining and snowing...weird eh :-/ haha). Besides ice, the people who drive their snowmobiles (3 & 4 wheelers during summers) like crazy and the idiots who shoot their guns everywhere (the majority of the signs here have bullet holes) there's not a lot of dangers. The worst when walking here is the pollution, there's many dumps and most of them are close to water plus the people here do not seem to know what a garbage bin is. I woke up early (well 10:00...for me its early) today and almost spent all of the time awake in bed so if I do not stay up too late I should get up at 9:00 or 8:00 and have a nice walk.

Hi Yvonnie! Thank you for your offer, I happily accept! I have low energy so that would help a lot (especially since i want to have big walks again...my winter coat is nice an warm but very heavy...when i have low energy i get back pain with that coat...probably because my back is less straight during these low energy days). I always end up with panic attacks when my physical health is not doing good, that's the only thing that has never let me down plus my pain level is not high so when that goes I have nothing left and the pain makes me freak out (add to that that i cant swallow pills and am scared during examinations and cant stand needles especially in my arms...always been like that...so not too fun when you have to take medication or go to the doctors or have blood tests...i even freaked out during my neck ultrasound...i kept trying to get into the bed...lol).

Great Nancy!

Let's get started tonight.

I also ask that during these seven days you repeat this affirmation:

"Tous les jours de toute facon je vais mieux, mieux, et mieux."

My translation could be off so, in English, I am saying, "Everyday in every way, I am getting better, better, and better."

Say it, out loud, ten times, three times a day (10x, 3x/day).

Keep in touch. Let me know how things are going.

Your translation is great. When did you learn French?

Is it autosuggestion to recommend that we should believe that we would be better be telling ourselves that everything would get better if we trust it would be?
Yvonnie, guess you are very good at psychological counseling, is there any methods to help relieve a very sick person from the constant pain suffered from the body? Can the autosuggestion thing work on people who has get very clear affirmation that he will never get better?
Thanks Yvonnie for your great advice in advance, appreciate any of your suggestions!

Hey Nancy! Thanks for the confirmation. I'm always learning French and Spanish. I love languages, but Spanish and French are the only two I ever attempt. Tried German before but it simply did not flow well for me.

My bucket list includes becoming fluent in French, Spanish, Italian, and Portuguese.

Anyway, remember to say your affirmation in French. For some reason, Spirit says that will work better for you.

Happy Day Nancy!

Hi Meredith!

Yes it is auto suggestion. And yes, it works very well.

I am not necessarily very good at "psychological counseling" but, I do spend a lot of time in meditation searching for solutions. I have discovered that our bodies have a keen healing capability that we often block with negative thoughts, emotional baggage, and spiritual discord. This is why I am such an advocate for whole healing.

There are ways to help people that have learned to believe that they will never get better, but they have they have to want that healing. I use a method called remote communication to inspire people to see the light that resides within them again.

In that remote communication I impart unconditional love to my subject and remind them that they are loved and that someone wants them to be as happy as happy can be in this lifetime.

Then, when I can see that they have received that spark, I will suggest auto suggestive phrases/affirmations or other things that they should indulge in that will help the healing process continue. Eventually, when they show a true desire to be better, I do a remote healing session that allows me to look into the body and find the dark spaces that need clearing. Sometimes, I instruct them to see their doctor because the thing that will best facilitate their healing is a prescription of medication; just because the person believes more in medication than they do spirit/mind/emotion/body work.

Again, while I am working on the subject, I am not the healer. The subject is the healer and must want to be healed. I am aware that if the subject does not begin to heal under my care, I am not their final option. The Universe will send them another opportunity when they are truly ready.

I know this is a lot Meredith and my methods vary according to the person I am working with (previously referred to as the subject). So, if there is a way I can assist you, let me know. If the matter is too personal, please send me a private message. I am always open to doing spirit work that inspires whole health and self-realization.

Thanks for asking!

I may try German soon. Almost bought German For Dummies last year (at least id know some things and know how to say them) but chickened out and took it out of my Amazon basket. For my affirmation I have been saying it but not the number you told me. The first day I did it more than once but since then I do it only once a day (i also dont count how many times i do say it when i do say it). Sorry about that. I don't believe in these things (the positive affirmations) but I do say it when I think about it.

Nancy-

You should try German soon. Let me know if your ever do.

Glad to know that you are saying it, regardless of how many times. It takes a while to develop the habit.

Its okay right now if you don't believe, but say it anyway. Once a day is good. Twice a day is great! Three times a day, 10 times each, is magnificent and holds more power.

So, how is your health these days?

I was scared that you would be mad at me for not saying it the number of times you told me to. Right now I am okay. Low energy but that's about it. I keep thinking about the neck and throat issues but rarely the symptoms come with it so I eat anyway, I'm almost eating like I used to. The next time I'm buying something on Amazon and the book German For Dummies that come with CDs is still there I'm buying it. I'll tell you if it worked after trying it.

Hi Nancy-

I'm pretty flexible. If I assign you a healing project, I didn't create it so much as I felt it was for you. It's always up to you to do it or not. Sometimes, I think Spirit conjures up these homework assignments (like affirmations) just to get you to get into the mindset of wanting the healing.

That said, your homework is pretty easy. Sometimes the assignment seems crazy. And more important, I know that that particular affirmation works (never been told to assign it in french before though).

Glad to hear you are doing better. And good for you on the German. Can't wait to hear more about it (once you get it).

Wishing You Self-Realization and Whole Healing,

It is amazing to me how fast your physical body reacts to stress. I developed a cold overnight, making me think that my immune system is a little weakened. I had a very stressful day yesterday when some crazy circumstances threw me way off balance. It will take me some time to get over yet another hurdle on this journey called life.

Speaking of balance, it is high time for the pendulum to swing the other way.....

Debbie-

I would be happy to do some remote energy work for you if you would like.

Let me know.

Nancy-

How is your health these days?

Hi Yvonnie! It's better. I even have more energy. I woke up at 13:00 today, I know it's late but for me it's like 6:00! I'll try 12:00 tomorrow and keep on taking one hour off so soon I'll be able to take long walks again, that will help get me more energy and my brain will like it (its tired of always beeing inside and in front of the computer..haha). How are you?

I am great! And excited to hear that you are improving. I can send more energy if you would like.

Let me know.

Hi Yvonnie, I am glad to hear that you are great! I woke up later than yesterday's today so no walk for me today (i could of walked at night but there was a lot of rain lately and today was cold and since theres like 2 lights working it was not a good idea). A movie I like (Silent Hill) is playing later and I haven't seen it in a while so I'll be watching it. Next Tuesday I have an appointment at 11:00 so I can't wake up later than 8:30 so I will be able to take a walk that afternoon at least. Last night (or the night before...1 thing with being lazy and spending lots of time in front of the computer is that your memory is not too good) I thought about the sentence I was supposed to say and I kept on saying it over and over for a while and I started again after I realised I had stopped saying it a few minutes later.

Hey Nancy-

Glad to know you are still fighting your own fight, whether you believe in affirmations or not.

I am so looking forward to you getting out and walking again.

Yay You! Keep me posted.

Still fighting my cold but at least it is not getting worse. I am taking care of myself the best I can in the last few days, taking naps and trying to boost my immune system with vitamins, minerals, and herbs. Sometimes I sleep with my various healing stones, too.

I can since Friday night eat on the left side! At first I thought it was false hope (it happened a few nights where i could eat on that side for a few bites or the whole night then the next day it would be hell) but yesterday all day long it was fine and today so far it's okay too! I keep on forgetting that I can now chew normally! It sometimes hurt but it does not stop me from chewing on that side! If this keeps up tomorrow I will get up before 11:30 so that the dentist I haven't tried yet has at least a twentyfour hour notice about my cancellation, and by getting up at that time I will be able to finally take a walk!

Yay!!!! Sounds great!

I'm very happy for you. Let me know how that walk works out.

I did take a walk that day and it was nice. I did not go too far since I was tired but I did go to a small river (when you walk really slow like i do [it helps me relax when i walk slowly] its about 30-40 minutes). No walks since then. I could of taken one today since I was up before noon but I was too lazy so I stayed inside instead. My lazy days are almost gone so I enjoy every seconds of laziness I do have, haha :-)!

Nancy-

This news makes me so happy. You taking a walk and enjoying your laziness. I hope you are being present in those moments; really drinking in the sights, sounds, smells, sensations, and even the taste of the air.

I hope you are finding a moment to be grateful for those moments. Our gratitude increases our good fortune.

I haven't sent you light and love since that night and your posts suggest you are on your way; you are discovering your path.

I am truly happy for you. Keep at it.

I am excited and scared tonight because tomorrow is a big day for me! I will make some small changes and I will also do something that will probably change things around here. Normally I get all happy about these days and when they actually go well not too long after they turn the other way to where it was or worst so this is why I am afraid. But I think this time is different. Something happened last night and it woke me up. Hopefully tomorrow will go smoothly and the following too so I can make other changes that would be bigger!

Today I am still down with the tail end of the flu, but otherwise I feel pretty good. I have had some gum disease, but i am working on eliminating that.

Nancy-

I am so sorry I was not here for you when you posted this. That said, the Universe was pushing you out there without my 2 cents.

How did it go? I'll bet it was great.

Please share.

Hey Jilly-

Hope all is well now. Though yours is probably over, I too am recovering from the flu. It seems to be dragging a bronchial tail behind it.

Stay healthy!

Yvonnie,

Don't worry about it!

Turns out it did not go as plan and did not work, like usual. I am preparing for another big day, it was supposed to be Monday or Tuesday but something came up and that made me realised that I had made an error of scheduling so that was a good thing. Now my big day is next week. After that big day I am giving myself a month to get my laziness out (well at least the get to bed and get up late thing out) and after that I am getting an hair cut and then it's get up at normal times and eat better time. If all goes well I will give myself a break (i want that break to last an entire Dallas Stars season) before the real big decisions will come.

Today as been a bad day so far and I woke up after 15:00 so I have a few hours left before getting back to bed plus I have a headache.

I hope you are doing well,

Nancy

Last month I went to pick up my glasses and my eyes are still not used to them so I'm going to have to go back there and have this checked out. Close to two hours away so it's kind of a pain going there, I was hoping that they would be able to make glasses for hypermetropia, at least they will take care of it unlike the first person I tried here! Most of the times it's okay then my eyes starts having trouble focusing so this should not be hard to take care of for them.

I'm going to get my glasses checked out in less than two hours. It should not be hard to correct since it's only missing about 15-20% (maybe less...its getting better) to be working all the time.

So my eye doctor checked my glasses and my eyes and the reason why the glasses are not working 100% is because my computer screen is too high. It's a 22" and the stand cannot be lowered or removed so I put my chair higher. If this does not work he told me to go back to see him and he'll change the glasses then.

About an hour ago I was in front of my television eating and watching something and I suddendly felt weird, I still am. It started with the feeling that I had one tooth missing in my mouth then like there were more tooth missing and then that they were there but out of place. Then it was like how we feel before getting the flu or something like that. Then it was like I barely could feel myself when touching my face and neck. Now it's almost gone but some of my teeth still feel weird (depending on how i close my mouth its either 1 tooth is missing or 1 tooth is not in its place) and it's like I have many bug bites on my face (nothing is there i checked).

What happened to me yesterday was gone after I wrote about it here (took about 1 hour or so). It was really weird!

As for my glasses I think that putting my chair higher is working. It's still not 100% but it's better than before I went to see my eye doctor. I'd say it's now at 90%.

I woke up with my uvula swollened today. This has happened a few times this year but thankfully so far it has come back to normal size that same day. The last time I checked (less than 1 hour ago) it was almost 100% back to normal, only a tiny part is still swollened, it's like I have a red dot at the tip but when I look with a different angle it's easy to see that it's swollened.

Mentally- Fine physically- Suffering from cold and cough spiritually- Fine Financially-Okay type

Suffering from headache these days...

Anybody have problems with their ear wax? I have been for many years. Noone wants to remove it for me. I tried many clinics before moving and I tried three times here and I'm always told that it is too dangerous (my doctor where i used to live used a metal stick to take some away....i still cant believe i let him do it...noone can tell me that this is not dangerous and that using water to clean ears is!!!!!!!!!!) and in the meantime I have my ears full of wax. The second to last person I saw told me to lay down in the shower and to put the water at the maximum pressure and to shove this in my ears and that was after she told me three times (if not more) that if she would of cleaned my ears it would be too dangerous, I almost punched her when she told me this! I was also told to put any oil in my ears (but these morons draw the line at motor oil). So every few weeks or months I have my mom put ear drops (i only use the ones sold in drugstores) in my ears, the wax never gets out of my ears, sometimes it goes close to the exit so I can scoop some with the tip of my little fingers.

This afternoon I think the wax went at the end of my ears, it was so bad that I thought I was going deaf! Now I can 100% hear but I still hear the buzzing sounds, if I'm lucky the ears will completely block (happened twice when i was young) so like that no doctors and nurses will have the excuse that they see my eardrums (that what i was always told) so I will finally get the cleaning I need!

My mom just put ear drops in my ears. She did the left last since it's the worst and it hurts (thats the first time putting ear drops hurts). I'm trying to calm myself right now, I know that if I could not hear it would be bad but I can hear perfectly, the wax on that ear rarely comes out and when I can feel it with the tip of a finger it's almost always hard not soft so I know it's because of that that it hurts, that ear is also the one who gave me most trouble yesterday. I stayed five minutes laying on the side for the right ear but I did less time on the left because it was hurting too much.

If there would be a private clinic around here I'd take an appointment and pay, I'm sure that when paying I'd get an ear cleaning!

I just had more drops in each ears, this time the left ear did not hurt so I was able to stay on that side the same amount of time (5 minutes) as with the right ear. That ear did hurt a little for a while tonight but it was after and during neck and head pain on that same side so that could of had nothing to do with the wax.

There's an ear specialist in Rimouski and I'll call him tomorrow, in Quebec though we need a paper of reference from a doctor and ours retired in June and we are on a list to get one so that may take a long time before I can go see that specialist!

So I found an ear specialist in Rimouski and was told when I called that these types of doctors do not take care of ear wax issues! So, I called the clinic in Causapscal and since I did not get an ear cleaning the two times I went there my doctor's paper is still good so they gave me an appointment Monday at 11:00. I had drops put in each ears earlier. If I am told that they cannot clean my ears they better not tell me something stupid like laying in my shower, put the pressure at the highest and to put that water in my ears because I will probably lose it!

And last night I had to take aspirins because my neck and head pain became a migraine (i often wait too long before taking aspirins), thankfully that migraine went away before I went to bed.

i fell dizzy these days

I had to take aspirins last night because I got a migraine and I had lots of stress that made it worst.

I took other aspirins more than one hour ago. I woke up with neck pains and I again waited too long to take aspirins and I ended up with a migraine and the neck pain was in my shoulders too. That migraine appeared after the email account I was with decided to suspend me without giving me warnings and telling me why (that was only the 17th day with these morons).

As for my ears the loud buzzing that started Sunday is gone. I canceled the Monday appointment, I know it will be like the other times and I am ver angry about this so this is just a recipe for disaster me going there and them refusing again to do an ear cleaning. I had drops put on both ears today and will continue like it's written in the bottle (1 time per day is for 9 days), maybe this time the drops will work. If it does not do like Sunday to Wednesday I have learned to live with this, it's stupid but that's how it works in my province.

I felt awful earlier so I took some aspirins, now it's much better. Woke up with a neck pain and it slowly moved to lots of other places. I had a small migraine and the rest is arthritis pain. As long as it keeps on not being sharp pains (i had some today...the breasts bone at the left...thankfully it did not last long...it was like i had dislocated something) and that it does not last long (it keeps on changing place and then it just stops) I'll be okay with it. If the pain comes back I'll be able to take more aspirins before Real Time starts but usually I only have to take aspirins once for the pain to go away.