I'm so grateful that you have created a support group and actually guide and direct blessed souls who are coming to this understanding and awakening !!
Unfortunately, I grew up with mid-western sensibilities shall I say.. and once this bona fide ' Aquarian stuff ' started opening up for me -- I had no one to share it with, and there is a lot of wannabe bull cr@p out there to be sure.
Back in my home town.... Lansing, MI there was only one book from the publisher I resonated with in a small off the wall church... yet, it seemed incumbent upon me to open a branch of my own... to no avail.
My Dad retired to FL at age 19 and I couldn't cope.
We did everything together as a family -- (3 boys, Mom, Dad & Live-In Uncle John).
I have the general vibe of woe is me.. but I was an extremely delicate soul and although dad traveled back and forth for 8 years, I couldn't get my footing and stand on my own.
Anyway... I sincerely do appreciate you gals and guys who understand this stuff -- because through my own spiritual pride and downright laziness I ended up spending the best part of my later teens and into my early 40s in mental institutions simply because I was creative, sensitive, kind and loving.
These many years later Dr. Stan Grof's work is starting to take root.
Elleise, If you would take some time to view these videos from my support group and personally comment upon them I sure would appreciate it.
Holidays are crazy, however you seem to be a highly organized and disciplined person when it comes to time and space.
As far as the shorting out of appliances go...
There is an ancient original Star Trek episode, (we're all mesmerized by Star Trek aren't we) !!
That graphically depicts the sensing feeling knowing before it comes into manifestation i.e. Anna's broken mixer blades and your knowing the packages weren't coming as soon as you ordered them...
Thoughts are things and maintaining an iron grip while keeping the child-like curiosity alive is a most difficult balance to strive for, maintain, and purify.
They call it " The Razor's Edge ".
Here is a story about a guy in Ohio that made it through and has a productive life:
I didn't quite make it through and I come here to my friends on Bella to keep me sane and semi-functional.