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#729574 - 12/08/11 03:56 AM
Re: Anyone here short out appliances?
[Re: Debbie-SpiritualityEditor]
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Shark
Registered: 09/10/11
Posts: 318
Loc: Australia
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Cassie, you are SO RIGHT! I'm working on it!
I have NO problem loving and forgiving others - especially after I've seen them face to face, but not for myself. (Years and years of persecution and 'putting down' that I came to accept and believe.) I still hear an inner voice (that is really a combination of many actual voices over the years) saying brutally 'You're just a good for nothing' - 'you should have died at birth', 'you are of the devil', and so on. Every time I make a mistake or do something stupid, or don't live up to my own expectations, these 'voices' scream at me. They are voices from the distant and recent past, but any Psychologist will tell you that this kind of 'imprinting' often remains.
At least I KNOW it isn't true and have proved it many times, But when my self concept is low, and I'm in great pain and with low energies, they come, like demons in the night that strike at you when you are down.
I guess, at my age I'll be working on this for the rest of my life!
I am puzzled though, as to HOW any feeling within myself could make one of my dogs ill, and then make someone try to kill my dogs with poison, and also make a little dog run out in front of me so I'd run over it - all in the space of three weeks! These 'attacks' I mentioned originally, are not at me directly, but at, and through my dogs and other people's dogs. That is why I suspected an 'outer'influence trying to get at me, and, as it involves dogs, I wondered if 'someone' doesn't like the work I'm achieving for dogs in Rescue - a GREAT DEAL of money raised through my work, and more coming in. One rescued dog even NAMED for me! The work I'm doing is very much 'out there' and my name well known, even where I live!
It is not a comfortable feeling.
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#729593 - 12/08/11 05:37 AM
Re: Anyone here short out appliances?
[Re: Onealone2]
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Chipmunk
Registered: 09/09/11
Posts: 1538
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Cassie, you are SO RIGHT! I'm working on it!
I have NO problem loving and forgiving others - especially after I've seen them face to face, but not for myself. (Years and years of persecution and 'putting down' that I came to accept and believe.) I still hear an inner voice (that is really a combination of many actual voices over the years) saying brutally 'You're just a good for nothing' - 'you should have died at birth', 'you are of the devil', and so on. Every time I make a mistake or do something stupid, or don't live up to my own expectations, these 'voices' scream at me. They are voices from the distant and recent past, but any Psychologist will tell you that this kind of 'imprinting' often remains.
At least I KNOW it isn't true and have proved it many times, But when my self concept is low, and I'm in great pain and with low energies, they come, like demons in the night that strike at you when you are down.
I guess, at my age I'll be working on this for the rest of my life!
I am puzzled though, as to HOW any feeling within myself could make one of my dogs ill, and then make someone try to kill my dogs with poison, and also make a little dog run out in front of me so I'd run over it - all in the space of three weeks! These 'attacks' I mentioned originally, are not at me directly, but at, and through my dogs and other people's dogs. That is why I suspected an 'outer'influence trying to get at me, and, as it involves dogs, I wondered if 'someone' doesn't like the work I'm achieving for dogs in Rescue - a GREAT DEAL of money raised through my work, and more coming in. One rescued dog even NAMED for me! The work I'm doing is very much 'out there' and my name well known, even where I live!
It is not a comfortable feeling. Well, if you're a public figure then there is the possibility that there are some sickos out there... But I would not write too much into that because it could lead you into some real unsubstantiated paranoia especially since you're on your own. That would explain two cases but unless you actually have seen someone release or throw the dog into traffic, it doesn't explain that incident. It most likely is a combination of the two unless the sick and poisoned dog were unattended then I would lean toward the idea that 'the force' who knows that you are a bearer of god's light or a lightbearer has seen that your dog rescue efforts have brought you great joy and purpose and anything that brings you joy and meaning, they will attack. Now that sounds like reverse logic but physical threats are more immediate and dangerous. IMHO you're going to need a more powerful form of prayer known as the science of the spoken word.
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#729598 - 12/08/11 06:31 AM
Re: Anyone here short out appliances?
[Re: Burt B.]
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Shark
Registered: 09/10/11
Posts: 318
Loc: Australia
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The only ones I could say were not 'accidental' in the first case, are the poisoned tuna carefully hidden in my yard, and the fact that the dog I ran over was a really weird incident, due to owner lack of responsibility. First off, I learned that the dog was frequently allowed to get out of its yard, but had not been hit by a car until mine happened along just at that exact time.
The actual accident was strange. The dog ran across the road (4 lanes of traffic) MISSED being hit by another car going the other way, then suddenly, turned around and ran back into my wheels! It was as if someone called it, (but no one was there) or somehow made it do a complete U turn - into me. The dog HAD been going to the opposite side of the road. It only got hit because it turned around and ran back. The timing was perfect for it to be right under my wheels.
It was as if I WAS SELECTED to hit it!
But there were also possible POSITIVE reasons why it ran back under MY car.
1) Sooner or later SOMEONE was going to run over it.
2)I stopped and gave assistance (I held it - and I used to heal this way - years ago) and persuaded the owner (who showed up shortly after) to take the dog to the ER (I said if he didn't, I WOULD!)
3) I was probably the only person who could enlist hundreds of prayers for the dog, as I notified three dog lists, including the rescue group I belong to, and know for certain that over 160 people were lighting candles and praying for him because they sent me emails confirming it. (these consisted of people in the US, Canada, Australia, the UK, Germany, Holland, France, Sweden, and South America)
Perhaps if he had gone under someone else's wheels, he may not have survived. He certainly wouldn't have had all those prayers!
He DID recover from terrible injuries, and this was the first miracle. The second miracle was my dog's recovery from being poisoned in his own yard. (with the prayerful support of the same list members)
I thought after, that negative forces MAY have brought about these two horrors, to hurt ME, but that the Powers of Light were instrumental in turning what might have resulted in death for the dogs and heartbreak for me, into miracles with happy endings. (It's not the first time I've had miracles regarding animals)
(By the way, the sick dog I spoke of is the same one who got the poisoned tuna. He was diagnosed a few days earlier with a heart condition and a lung infection.)
So there is the whole picture in perspective. Perhaps, again, a battle between darkness and light?
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