We lost our triplets in April of 2010. Obviously, it was awful and heartbreaking. My husband was deployed at the time and I ended up in the hopsital from complications and that just made it even more traumatic. Bottom lined, it sucked, but what else would you expect from losing your kids? Its been almost two years and while I feel like I have moved on, I mostly feel like I have shoved my anger and sadness into a box that I am better at controlling the lid to. I know that you never really get over that type of loss, but I feel kind of helpless. Like I should be doing something, but I don't know what it is. I got a tattoo of three doves, but they are only incomplete outlines. I felt that was a good representation since they flew away before they were complete. I love my tattoo and it brings me joy to see them every day, but in my head I'm just like what else, something else needs to be done, this isn't enough. I know this really doesn't make any sense, but I'm hoping someone else feels this way, too. Just so I know I am not crazy. Everyone says they "get over" miscarring when they have children, but children aren't in our plan right now. We aren't in the right economic situation to bring children into the world and I would still like a little more time with it just being me and my husband. Although I do have that little voice inside of me that started screaming "HAVE A BABY" after the miscarriage. Its incredibly annoying, but my common sense side of my brain beats it into submission for a bit =) Does anyone know what I am talking about? How did you deal with it?