i might just want to add something ellesse, because you made me ponder on this.it is upsetting obviously in the right way .i like criticism or remarks because there s always something coming out of it.
i also write or leave the cap locks because it happens naturally,meaning it just happens because it is me at the moment.like you d pull a tarot card because you r attracted to it in the same way i type on my computer.it s a mirror really.but again because of my sickness it s a fact and not an attempt at pity,i forget who i am and i didn t recover from the shock it causes which makes me actually write in caps lock probably because it must mean that i am trying hard to remember who i am,by breaking a circle applying sheer btute force.cause this is actually the state i am in when i write about those,and as you hurt too i hurt as well most of the times i write.
you shouldn t be afraid to upset me,i know f=some people wouldn t have acted the same way but you actually helped me a lot on that one and i hope that i my hurt made you hurt what i learned from it you will gain something too at least in a sense of freedom.
i m sorry if i kept going on this,msost of the time you have to go to the core of thingsto really understand why this happens or this,and i like evryone to win in the end because that s how it should be.
i will try to be careful.i obviuosly don t change on your account because that would no sense but i ll change on my account because i understood what you meant and you helped start this thought process which turns out good.and i unsderstand you re a sensitive person.
at the moment i m not really healed and a lot of stuff i say is deformed because interferences deviate my real thoughts,unfortunately i can t change everythng at once and have to keep following the thread.i m like in a labyrihth and elleise i just met you on the way and gained wisdom and can continu on my journey.and again i hope you got something out of it too,it s impossible you dont.

it's true that web etiquette says that reading something written in all caps is like reading someone shouting. I actually can't read any posts written in all caps. It's a little painful. Sorry.

deanna, that story about grampa mike and the fishing is awesome!

don t be sorry jilly,it s painful for me too,i realized it,as a mattre offact somebody from outside the forum in a mail just made me the same remark and i had to explain it over again.i m fine with everybody s remarks and welcome them as long as they don t intend to destroy me which some people do.

No one here wants to destroy you, Gemineye -- you can be sure of that.

Deanna, that is really astounding about your son and his Grandpa. Kids can really make us ponder about life and deeper thoughts.

Thank you for understanding. I don't intend to upset anyone, ever.

Jilly, you are so kind. You are a bit like me, you just say what you need to -- the intent is always good and never meant to upset.

oh yeah i wasn t talking about people here,just some others what elleise and jilly said was true it did upset me but when it s for truth upsetting should never be feared and i appreciate very much that people here don t refrain.so again thanks for pointing that out to me and i felt i had to explain myself and won t write in capital letters anymore.

Thank you, Phyllis. I am constantly learning how to write and say things kindlier on the internet in spite of my forthright nature.

Gemineye, I did appreciate what you said about realizing you had the caps lock on in the same way you might draw a reverse tarot card. That could be self illuminating for sure.

i meant jilly i draw a card the same way i pick the letters...