It's been one month and two days since I delivered my tiny little boy :( I've done soo good through all of this but I wonder, how in the world do you survive daily when you get pregnant again? This was my first pregnancy, and everything was perfect! No morning sickness..the belly was showing, heard the heartbeat at 2 different appts and all was seeming sooo fine. 2 weeks after my 2nd appointment, I had one little brown spot...that's all, and I called my midwife and she said, oh you're fine, that's normal, swing by and let's hear that heartbeat so you feel better...there was none. She scheduled me for a sono the next day but while she was checking me, she asked...Do you feel pregnant? And it was at that moment that I realized, my boobs did not hurt and I figured it was over. The next day at the sono it was sooo sad. The MOMENT I saw my baby on the screen and everything was like a still frame photo, I just started crying...I knew instantly that he waas gone. For those who have lost a baby after hearing the heartbeat ...how do you do it on round 2. If I get pregnanat again, everyday single day for 9 months I wil be wonderinf if my baby has died :(